One of those days

Have you ever had one of the days when you just feel blah? You see things around you that need to be done, but then you think..Why? No one will notice any way. You try and find something to do that will bring you a little joy, but nothing seems to?

I am having one of those days, I need to vaccum the house.. but why? I should do the dishes, but why? It's so much easier to sit on my rear and do nothing.

New Beginning

I have been in a flunk for a year now. My Marriage has ended, got into a bad relationship that ended up harming not only me but my children. Would have been homeless but for the Grace of God and my ex husband letting me live with him and the kids.

I took a CNA class and passed with flying colors, while I don't have a steady 8 hour job, I do have work with one lady doing home health.

I am battling depression, but am not going to give into it. My kids deserve to have a mother around, if for no other reason than to LOVE them with all her heart. That is my JOB, and I will fight for every right to do it.

Down

Lately I have felt down, I have been to two funerals this month. One of a 17 yr old boy who was like another son to me. And my cousin Kenny who was only 3 yrs older than me. It has been hard to know how quick life can change.

Another school year is comming up, Aug. 11th and I didn't finish last years. It can carry over, just more work for this year. I want to focus on school more.. I know I say that every year.. but I am more dedicated this year.

I might have to quit my job, which is fine.. I miss my family time. I hardly see James anymore and it's hard on my family. It has proved that the girls can be more responsible though.. so that is a good side effect.

I know I am rambling, just have alot on my mind.. and what better place to ramble than my own blog!

I have made a list of goals that I would like to accomplish this year.. but don't have time to post them right now. Main thing is to spend more time with God and my family.. learn to love myself..and then I can love my family like I should.

Remember our puppy?

Back when we got her she was so small and cute:







Ummm now she is huge.. and still growing.








And of course can't forget my big baby Girl:

Fun time

Yesterday we visited our friends that live in the country (yes 3 miles out is country). We had hoped to spend a few hours there, but a friend called and wanted me to babysit.. so we had about an hour with them. It seems if we plan a visit in advance, it rains or we have other complications. But last minute seems to work just fine.

Fun pictures of the kids swimming.










Pierre wanted in on the action too.





Picture of Vicki that she didn't want me to take.






Last but not least a few of our kids and their sign.


















One more day till I have another teenager in the house, the last of our children's birthdays! Not sure what we will be doing.. probably something cheap but fun.

Rain, rain go away

Every time I make plans it rains! I am tired of the rain and puddles in my yard.

I do have new pictures of the kids.. I hope you enjoy them:

Teenager in the house!

Oh help.. I have an offical teenager in the house!! And another one to join in just a few short weeks!! The Birthdays are upon us! And people wonder why I am coloring my hair.

We had a great weekend as a family.. speant it playing and just enjoying each other company.

I will have to get a new picture of the kids up.. they had pictures taken on Thursday.

Pictures

We built some dinosaurs out of styrofoam at a recent academy at the school building.

fun but exhusting weekend

This past Saturday we drove to Hays ( 4hours away) to my cousin Rachel's wedding, it was very beautiful and touching. There is something touching about watching a man cry at his wedding.

Sunday we drove to Valley Falls ( 1 1/2 hours away) to my folks house for Easter dinner, yes it was a week early due to church programs that will be on Easter. We had fun.. it was so sweet my neice R told me that she had been looking forward to seeing me all day. Love that girl, she is the same age my two girls and we just seem to connect.

This week is spring break, but we will be doing some major house cleaning, and school work.

I hope to get some new pictures taken of the kids playing so I can post them here.

Recent Visit at a friends

On Wednesday we went and visited our Vickie and all her "kids".. two two legged kind and 11 or 13 four legged kind. All the kids had fun and Vickie and I had a great visit.

I learned all the momma goats names.. it was fun listening to Vickie and her boys trying to figure out which baby belonged to which mama.. Alice ...Alice Goat.

Pictures of our new baby!

We adopted this precious little "Lady" from the local animal shelter and she has just won our hearts. She is a lab/??? mix.. and gorgeous! Only a few months old, but soo smart.


Of course girl still is not totally sure about her, but is learning to tolerate her. I think she is a little jealous.

Schedule changing..again..big sigh..

My days keep changing.. lol.
Monday: Girls class 8:30 - 10;Boys speech 9-9:55
Tuesday: Girls class 8:30 - 10; Boys Art/Music class 9- 10:30; Home school group 1-4
Wednesday: Girls class 8:30 - 10; Boys speech 8:30 - 9; (boys start reading help 9-10)
Thursday: Girls class 8:30-10; (boys reading 9-10)
Friday: Girls class 8:30-10;(boys reading 9-10); Girls art/Music 1-3:30

Of course then I do still work most nights 6-11:15.

Busy Lady

I thought I was going to slow down this year.. but it seems to have picked up speed instead.

M-F I am in town, the girls are getting extra tutoring help in Math, Reading, and English for 90 minutes a day. During that time the boys and I do school at TPLC, and they have their art & music lessons. Tuesdays we have Home School group learning classes. Thursdays we have a learning academy 2x a month, and the boys speech. Fridays the girls have their music/art lessons in the afternoon. And I work at Casey's 4-5 nights a week.

Mmmm dh time, for about 5-10 minutes a day during the week, weekends we see a little more each other.

I still have not got pictures of the new truck, nor have I gotten the pleasure of driving it. I did however get surprised with a key to it! (so I get to unlock my door...lol)

Life is busy, but I am trying to stay caught up.

New Year, New Truck

James went to Missori today and got his new truck. It's almost everything he was looking for in the new truck.. only it's not a 4x4. Not sure of the color.. I guess it is listed as green, but does look blue in certain light. It is a 1997 F-350 diesel crew cab, power everything it has grey interior. Our 6'3" friend went with him and sat in the back seat.. said there is plenty of room for our tall girls. (lol).

James also found a 24x20 two story shed on craigs list and went and checked it out on the way to get the truck. Sooooo we might have a new shed too!!

The Lord is already blessing us in the new year!!

Oh my goodness.. it is soooo nice... I love the truck!! As of right now I have only ridden in it to work, but I love it.

Busy

I seem to keep busy doing things.. but don't remember doing much..lol. This year seems to have flown by. I can't believe it is almost the new year.. where did the time go?

I have been working 20-25 hours a week at Casys in the evenings..I really do enjoy working there. I feel more confident and know that I can work when I need to. I have worked there long enough to make time and half on holidays!! I worked Christmas, and will be working New Years also.

I need to find some new pictures to post.. I love looking at other peoples pictures, maybe you all might looking at mine.

Have to head off to bed.. taken some cold meds and they are kicking in.

Family Photo

After posting those pictures of the van, I wanted to post something positive.. here are the family pictures we had taken recently.

Hello

After much deliberation, I realized I had not made a post about my wreck on Dec.8th, so I thought I would post some pictures here. Most of the people that come here and read my blog know what happened.

So to make a long story short, I hit a patch of ice and ended up in the ditch on the drivers side. In order for them to get the kids and I out they had to break a few windows. We are all ok, recovered nicely.

Good Christmas Song

added a video bar.. I love the Don't Cross Christ out of Christmas.

Tired

I have been doing more demos at the grocery store and I am sore and tired. My feet really hurt..lol. I was able to see several friends that I haven't seen in a while. Wish I could have talked to them longer, but it was still fun to chat for a minute.

New October Photos of the kiddos

Photobucket Album

Click on the picture, it will take you to the page on photobucket to see the rest.